The Shine was OFF without a word

It happened yesterday and ended 3 months later.

We both just like the same
A perfect harmony
You gave a thing
Feeling that couldnt go easily
Even in my confusedness.

I liked you
But i dont know now.

I wanna ask
Whether with this arrogancy
To make you know
I always there
Waiting
Gently...


bye 2008 and welcome for this the hardest year..

A super great lyric

Sumpaaaaah ! I do as a girl (not yet a woman) want it someday. Thanks Mrs. Jay-Z!

If I Were A Boy

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girlsI’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

Future starts now

Ada satu kebiasaan dongo klo keluarga gw belanja bulanan. Mungkin lebih bisa disebut two-weekly grocery shooping. I named myself as a calculator girl. HAHAHA temen-temen gw juga udh ngerti banget. One reason to become an economist one :)
Tapi klo menurut gw sih karena disebabkan gw jarang minta uang sama orang tua buat pergi-pergi. Jadi gw hematttt & perhitungan. Itu ga gw laksanain kemaren, akibatnya duit tinggal 8rb saja! Padahal pergi aja belum...

Every two-weekly grocery shooping, i have two option about snacks. The sweet way or salty way. But oftenly the salty way. Klo bagian ini, gw biasanya beli pasta dan keju! Those are must. And ussualy request from some of my friend to cooking pasta. Lalu dibawa sebagai bekal. All of them are my trully costumer in the future.

The other side, the sweet way, biasanya gw cuma beli manisan mangga biskuit permen-permen. And i waste it myself! But i rather to share it with people around. Insya Allah kesampean nanti gw bisa punya bistro yang ciaaamik tapi ga mahal. Oh i forget to tell you about popcorn in my salty way, but it just sometimes if i have a mood. HAHA btw i'm starving now,so i'll make pasta as my breakfast. See yaaa!!
Hope i can share it with you xxox

S-O-K

Larrrr says:
nang besok ntn yuk
anang says:
nonton apa dimana?
Larrrr says:
kita ngedate
anang says:
hahahaha
Larrrr says:
ih gamau?
anang says:
mau dong
anang says:
hahah

(gw punya temen anak-anak anwar & mereka membuka wawasan)

A REAL hero

Bu Ai Sumiarsih

Ibu ga ngajarin kalian untuk licik tapi cerdik. terkadang itu lebih menguntungkan buat kalian :)

Inget solat. Mulai malam ini dimulai yaa solat malam-nya. ----> maaf bu belum dilaksanain!

Pikirkan orang tua kalian yang udah kerja keras banting tulang.

Ibu klo dikatain mungkin cepet lupanya, tapi klo kalian ga jujur, Ibu inget terus sampe kalian udh lulus pun! @#$%^ & $%^#@* ----> so last year

Dia sering marah kalo kita salah, dan itu benar. Dia tahu penempatan setiap masalah. Dia membawa kita maju ke depan bukan melihat ke belakang :) what a real herooooo. and she should get the best to her life. Lihat deh tuh kue ulang tahunnya sampe ada dua, tiramisu and blueberry. then all science class celebrate it! Beliau merayakan hari itu dengan berpuasa. Jarang ada guru begini dalam kamus hidup gw. dan gw selalu berusaha untuk bisa matematika.

Smile for it

I always knew I was going to be rich. I don't think I ever doubted it for a minute.
Warren Buffett

We enjoy the process far more than the proceeds.
Warren Buffett

I think when you spread the wealth around it's good for everybody.
Barack Obama

If you're walking down the right path and you're willing to keep walking, eventually you'll make progress.
Barack Obama

We're not going to baby sit a civil war.
Barack Obama

I'm not a smart man, but I know what love is.
Forrest Gump

I love waking up in the morning not knowing where I'm gonna go or who I'm gonna meet. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge, and now here I am, on the grandest ship in the world, having champagne with you fine people.
Titanic

Love means never having to say you're sorry.
Love Story

If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go. ----> huhuhu ;ccc

Prove the truth, NOT the rubbish agreement

Gw udah mulai mikir. Mungkin blog gw agak menyedihkan dan sangat membosankan. Biarlah (hapus cinta) sama feeling kyk gt. Anggap aja gw nulis buat kepuasan gw sendiri. Karena blog ini kan punya gw, jd mau diapain kek jg yaaa itu urusan gw! Soo this my officially diary. Enjoy what you get people :’)

But by the way, awalnya niat bikin blog tuh pengen bs ngelucu. Menurut gw lumayan banyak kisah lucu dan unik di sekitar kehidupan gw. Tapi begitu gw tulis. Boseeeenin banget. Bahasa gw itu loh yang gabisa luwes. Dan yah mungkin that’s my truly style. Boring and boring. Serious and nothing to make people can laugh for it.

Dan lagi-lagi gw mengeluh.

Komersialisasi pendidikan

Maaf klo lagi-lagi membosankan. Tapi inilah gw dengan segala ke ga santai-annya. Gw skeptis dan kritikal atas hal-hal yang ga masuk akal kyk gt seandainya kalian mau lebih tahu dan peduli.

Pleeeeaase para anggota dewan. Pikirkan para masyarakatmu secara keseluruhan! Negerimu kaya tapi banyak rekan sejawatmu membuatnya menjadi miskin karena kemiskinan moral mereka.

Buktikan iklamu wahai partai yang mengaku membuat negeri ini benar-benar mentapkan anggaran pendidikannya 20%. Lucu deh klo ngeliat cara mereka beriklan. Lucu juga deh pemilu tahun depan.

World is bigger as we ALL know

What the heck? Am i veryy not a santai person? YESS they said.
I'm just too care for all the thing happen in the world. but it's not a meaning that i cant solve the problem without angry feeling or something not in a good mood way. i'm just critical and skeptical. that's one of my reason why i love about politic, world news, and law. i'm curious about that.
This feeling makes me more sure that i can get the faculty of law than the economic one. even i also very excited about economic syariah which the syariah thing will make me better as a Moslem.
Sooo let's see how this 3-4 months (or maybe more) going. i just waiting for my God's will.

I'm Introvert based from my dad & cheerful based from my mom

Monthly Saturday

Weekend such a heaven for me. Special for Saturday. Idk why actually but yeaaah karena setiap bulan pada hr sabtu saya akan kontrol gigi di Monas (Dental Clinic Association) di Indosat. Aneh mungkin ya? Apa karena gw menikmati kesendirian? Am I a travailer? Hmmm maybe yes maybe no. Pokoknya yang gw alamin setiap sabtu itu sometimes pretty damn unique. Tapi kadang buat ngabur ngalor ngidul juga hehe.
Hari ini rencana gw tadinya adalah menuju Monas with (again & always) busway then went to Depok to Bedah Kampus. I was wandering busway have a track to Depok too. The thing that I mostly regret, I didn’t ordered Bedah Kampus ticket to Idham! But I kinda angry for that. Masa untuk sebuah acara pendidikan begitu tiket sampe abis? Parahnya lagi sampe ada calo segala. Segen aja seandainya gw datang lebih pagi dan membeli tiket dari calo. What the heck? Lama-lama sampah juga nih. Membuat ilang feeling.
Tapi yah namanya juga Indonesia. Gabisa ngeliat peluang sedikit ajaaaa buat nyari uang dengan segala cara. Apalagi percaloan itu juga udah jadi cara yang lazim sekarang ini. And it’s also pure from my bad mistake.
I’m a learner. From a mistake i’ll always learn to be better and knows what the true is. Dimulai dari jam 11 setelah kontrol gigi, I met Nurin and we went together to UI. We bot didn’t know well about UI actually. Bermodal nekat akhirnya kita jadi sok tahu sendiri (terutama gw). Sampe di halte UI, kita nunggu si bungsu dari keluarga Tajudin. Ketika dia datang, ga lama bikun yang udh 5x lewat sebelumnya dateng. Sok-sok mahasiswa, kita naik aja itu bikun, padahal Nurin udah bilang kayaknya nih bikun lurus deh ga muter. Pas udah di dalem, duduk, daaaaaan bener aja loh itu bis lurus. Yang gw sempet rada aneh, kenapa nih bikun ada nomornya 05? Kayak trayek aja. Ternyata sepertinya itu bikun tujuan akhirnya di Wisma yang buat mahasiswa. Jeng jeng, kita turun sok-sok lagi. Untung ada bikun nomor 12 agak nganggur. Yauda kita naik aja yang penting keluar dari hutan bagian itu.
Lokasi Bedah Kampus sebenarnya ada di Balairung UI. Klo dari pintu masuk tinggal lurus aja terus kanan. Deket deh sama FT klo gasalah. Tapi bikun nomor 12 itu malah berbelok di kanan pertama, yaitu psikologi and else! Sooo like Nurin said, ”Jangan-jangan kita malah cuma di bikun aja nih muter-muterin UI!”
Masalahnya yang tau Balairung pasti cuma gw. Itu pun patokan gw cuma yang tadi gw tulis diatas. Dan ini kita malah dibawa puter-puter sama bikun nomor 12! Mana gw ngerti ini tujuan akhir bis dimana. Gw sempet mikir, ini bis poltek (politeknik) kali ya yang gw gatau itu dimana. Gilaaaaaa baru sadar betapa UI tuh luaaaas banget. Bener kata Valdi, ”Kampus kok ditengah hutan.”
Akhirnya setelah melewati FMIPA to FT, ternyata benar. Ga percuma deh kita bertiga dalem bis suka mesem-mesem gajelas karena geli (ada hal lucu buat dikenang). Balairung di dekat situ. Pokoknya yang bagian ramai deh hehehe :---) dan carena itu tiket masuk beneran udah gada abis bis bis sementara dari kita bertiga yang punya tiket Cuma Nurin, kita sempet mutar otak deh pokoknya biar bisa masuk. Tapi males aja gitu, my late beginning dimulai dengan hal yang gaaa banget buat gw, meskipun itu salah gw juga.
And it’s all uncool but fun. Setidaknya gw bawa pulang 2 koleksi awal akan kesenangan baru. 2 anting Bali yang cukup chic and cheap buat gw :----) Remember Ras yang minat UI bukan cuma elo!
From a learner to a learner. I always be a learner cause sooo much question upon my head and I think every science could not answer all of it. God have his own plan to us like I do my own path.

SIMAK UI 1 MARET 2009!!!!!!

Paradise

Bali Bali Bali. Yes it’s a Paradise. Bali it’s a miracle island and the blablabla. 2008 such a wonderful year and special for 19-25th of April. The Bali-Jogja Study tour.
Actually sih sesungguhnya program tahunan sekolah ini suka simpang siur. Tahu sendiri keadaan geografis kita. Alhamdulillah angkatan gw resmi jadi itu event. Dengan segala kekurangan dr awal tentunya. Seperti dengan dibatasinya peserta menjadi hanya 5 bus. What the heck? Ini kan acara yang bakal jaraaang banget dilakuin. Udah gitu kan ini masa SMA. Yang menurut gw sebagai masa neraka dan berkah hahaha :---)
Sebenarnya maksud gw nulis ini bukan membahas tentang study tour itu. So stupid and silly and too tired and too ngangenin. Mungkin yang masih setia banget akan semua hal itu adalah handphone gw (friends and ehm ’the-x’ gaperlu disebutlah itu udah jelas). Baruuu banget main2 air (agak norak & jijay) di Tanah Lot, gw udah kecebur setengah badan tapi basahnya sampai membuat baju bisa diperas karena beratnya air, kesandung! And the jreng jreng handphone gw yg saat itu sudah berumur setaun dua bulanan kena deeeh. Mana gw baru sadar pas ganti bajunya yang diujung berung deket bis. Aarrrr please please please i’m on a trip and i need you to call my parents. To tell them I’m fine. Hell yeah, thanks to your ‘normal-on’ two weeks after that.
But let’s skip about that lah, back to the topic soal kenorak-an gw. Suka perhatiin sinetron-sinetron lepas yg ditayangin di sctv ga? Yang tipe-tipe 2 jam langsung abis. Sebenarnya gw agak jarang sih. Cuma klo nemu yang latar tempatnya Bali, udah deh gw akan melongo dan mematung menonton itu sinetron. Lebay sih tapi beneraaaaaan. Dan selalu nyelip tentang kebudayaan disitu, kayak penari Bali, pelukis, pematung, pemahat, dsb. Mungkin yang agak kurang tapi bakal selalu gw terima adalah jarangnya sinetron itu ke pantai-pantai lain selain Kuta. Gw inget Kay waktu liburan kesana menginap di hotel daerah Nusa Dua dan ga terlalu sempet kemana-mana karena adeknya 3 masih pada kecil hahaha. Mereka cuma main di pantai deket situ yang klo gw liat dari fotonya sih ga kalaaaaah dari Kuta. Ga berapa lama juga, my lovely lil daddy kesana ada urusan kerja (arrrrrr maooo ikuuuut). He stayed in a hotel. An unique hotel in … (lupa) yang underground gt. What a wooooohooooo!
I think I’m in love (always) with the panorama of that beauty island. From one drama to another. From Sangeh to GWK. I always love you, B! and the drama which are located in Bali.

2 days Drop

well, now is 00.08 A.M. and i'm starting to feel sleepy. tp tekad gw pengen nulis blog sedikit sblum tidur. 2hr kmren i was drop (i called it "drop to the ground") karena beneran deh. 2 hr tersiksa menerima pelajaran yang berat2 dan dituntut cepat tanggap tapi ini kepala ngiung-ngiung badan anget tangan dingin muka lemes (jarang2 orang liat gw lemes kcuali klo lg sakit). and today is friday in next 6hours i'll go to school untill afternoon then i'll have physic things in Quin (gada ingatan dan dasar di otak gw!!!!).
mana lagi nanti TO NF kimiaaaa aa aa. yaudalah bodo amat. gw udh berjuang di 2hr gw sakit dengan melawan sakit itu. agak tumben lho 2hr dengan suhu tubuh yang diatas rata2 akhirny gw beneran bs bebas tanpa ke dokter dan minum obat. intinya hidup musti seimbang biarpun belajar belum seimbang (gw menuju kesana). cicil lah IPS mu Ras!

When science go to the social

Hanya ingin mempertanyakan, emang kenapa sih klo gw pengen di hukum? anak IPA boleh kan interest sama hal yang tanpa angka itu? ato di bidang IPS lain? satu hal pengen gw tegesen bahwa gw ga nyesel udh ambil apa yang udah dikasih ke gw (kesannya marah-marah gini).

Mungkin agak terinspirasi sama Obama, even i don't want to be a president apalagi president of the USA. he graduated from Harvard Law School. meskipun ada keraguan juga karena gw ga pinter ngomong serta melobi orang. tapi gw interest, very interest to all of that news from around the world. gw juga suka ngikutin pelan-pelan sesuatu yg gw juga ga ahli (mendengar debat calon presiden dan segala penawaran mereka agar dipilih).

Yang gw tau pasti adalah banyak tanggapan teman-teman sebaya gw akan beratnya hukum disini. sulitnya sebuah kejujuran. hukum indonesia adalah hukum yang jauh dari jujur dan iya memang benar, itu juga gw takutin. gw takut neraka, dosa, dsb. tapi tujuan gw hidup harusnya bukan itu kan? bukan untuk masuk surga! tujuan gw yang paling utama adalah bisa bermanfaat bagi orang lain walaupun tanpa adanya ilmu di otak gw.

Apa itu udah gw jalanin? beluuuum. gw adalah orang yang terbiasa menonton TV dengan kepositifannya. maksudnya adalah sebenarnya TV itu banyak sekali hal bermanfaatnya. dari suatu tayangan kita bisa banyak belajar. tapi gw masih belum tergerak untuk berbuat. masih sebatas mengagumi si tokoh apabila ia berbuat hal yang bermanfaat.

*tulisan gw msh bingung untuk dibaca

Is it all wrong?

I rather confused about this situation happen in my life.
do you know, when you really love someone, but that someone
can't show to you what he can do. i mean seriously, he did almost nothing.
how could i stay with you? tell me you want me that much, but yeah i' dreaming.

At first I could receive and pass all that protective thing.
in fact also when many people asked why.
but I was rather annoyed on the person's intimidation about him.
you don't know how precious he is.

And when it' over, I still hoping him. whether you knew my pledge?
i think no, in fact myself did not understand why I wanted you like that.
the other person could come and go, but you are different.

terima kasih buat beberapa orang yang mau menanggapi hal-hal bodoh dalam situasi ini.
but this is my life, i'm caring it and don't asking that much to another people lifes even i have one and a half feeling...

The Arma!

You know Armageddon right? HAHAHA i always glad when rcti sometimes playing this film again and again. seriously i'm such a huge fan to this film. it's true because i have my fav. artist here.

he is Benjamin Affleck! i was remembered why i love this film. it happened when i was 11. b

ut stupidly, gw ingetnya nama Ben disitu tuh Rafe Milo... padahal milo drmn coba?

so everyday i regularly buy milo a chocolate milk in that time.
That's stupid huh? But yauuuuudahlah yaa setidakny Ben akan selalu terbawa sampai sekarang.

"i always love affleck & haris" is it not a kind of controversial words right?